Thursday

Watched The Last House On The Left today.

My Review: I thought the most recent so called horror movie I watched with the girls called the 'Uninvited' is stupid, but this.... turns out to be even more stupid. What's gotten to the horror movies lately? It's getting more and more stupid as the years goes by. Sigh... it's so hard to find good horror movies nowadays. I can only list out a handful of good horror movies you should watch BUT 100 horror movies you should not watch. Take my advice and save your kah-ching. Do not watch this movie.

After the movie we went for dinner and then to Haagen Dazs. By the time I got there, it was already closing time. Girls, I am so sorry I was late T_T

And then we went to the The Bayu Lounge in Tj. Bungah Hotel. It's actually quite a nice place. Darn, I wished I've brought my camera out >.<

*grins*


(Pictures taken from Ash)

During the midst of the breakup, I've lost so much weight. At that time, my weight was at 42kg and now... I weight 46kg! I gained 4kgs in just a month! That's a record time for me. I didn't see any difference on myself until I saw these pictures, I definitely saw the difference. I am so happy. If weren't for the PM constantly reminding me to eat and feeding my face, I wouldn't have come this far. Thank youuuuu

Holy Crap....

Monday

As if I didn't have enough on my mind already.
Discovered the letter inside a shitload of files and papers in my desk this afternoon.



In regards to this entry I made early February this year, I can't say much about it here or shall I put it as I should not as advised by my lawyer. All I can do now is just wait and see. The solicitor has draft the letter and I'm gonna go through them on Monday.

Friends and everyone's support especially Mr. T, I can't thank you all enough.
Thank you so much

Happy Birthday Eric!

Another month has passed, it's now July. Before I heard about the shocking news on my contract, my initial plan was to perform well in my current job so I could move on to a different division. To commercial/corporate loan and then on to bridging loan division. Good news is we managed to get our contract successfully renewed (Big thank you to CT our sales manager. I really appreciate this a lot) but... why am I not feeling too thrilled about it? Ever since the news, part of me has seemed to given up in hope to continue working in a banking industry. I feel so exhausted and I'm thinking of working in a similar or perhaps a different field which enables me to work both indoors and outdoors at the same time. I'll have to start making my decisions soon.

Good news is... Grace is finally back in Penang for good! I am so happy! I can't wait to see her soon.

Oh anyway, this is a post to wish our dear Eric a big Happy Birthday!
*points to the guy in pink striped shirt*


LOL!
What are you two fools doing?


Yayness!
Me and my sweet couzie, Kern.



Me and PM

Uhhh... don't ask about my makeup. All the pictures above is taken by Kern and when I saw the pictures of myself..... Bitchy was the first words I uttered from my mouth. I just finished working so I just replaced the suit with a black skirt before rushing back to Mois. Yes, I have a second job now. I am now working for Marlboro and this requires us to put on smokey eye makeup. (I HATE smokey eye makeup because they look shitty and dirty on me)

Mind you. I am someone who is very self conscious of herself but after much considerations, I have accepted the offer from Marlboro last month.

I know perhaps many has bad impression of the job but like Chaos said, it's all about how you bring yourself. If you are slutty, then people will think you are slutty.

Then what if my friends sees me? What would group xxx think of me? Ash's right. If they laughed and thought so badly about me only because of my job, then these are the friends I can live without. Seriously, why should I be embarrassed about doing the job? I'm not whoring myself. You know what? Fuck you. You know who you are. I'm earning an extra income of 3k a month (by working a few measly hours a day for only three times a week) on top of my current pay and look who's laughing now.

Da, Double Dee, Double Di...

Wednesday (30/06/09)

(I'm loving my new gray nudy lens. Thanks Kern *huggles*)

P.S I love pictures taken under natural lighting. They always look so nice but! ... Warning! Uhh... The pictures shown above is highly photogenic. I don't really look like them or the rest of all my pictures either. SO... *pssttttttt* Don't ever judge how a person may look like by their pictures on the internet.
And yes I am talking to you Mr. Kenneth. W the ebil dentist!

Saturday (27/06/09)

I can't blog for shit. I don't know how to blog! Arghhhhhhh!!!! *concentrates* Okay, I'll just start with what I did last Saturday.

After being with the bank for close to two years, the company has decided to flunk us out. First I lost my boyfriend and now I'm gonna lose my job. *soooooooob* To cut a long story short, it was much unexpected. I thought I've escaped from the freaking list! but sheesh! I don't sound very sad here don't I? Well actually I really am sad. *sigh* But anyway the decision has not been confirmed yet nonetheless, I still have to work on a Saturday.

I had to take pictures for the site visit report. This reminded me of the bad incident during my most recent site visit activity. Fortunately I have the "PM" to keep me company today. *worships his royal highness and then gags* LOL. (Don't ask why do I call him The PM. It's supposedly a private joke) Okay I'm being very mean here. *clears throat* The "PM" has generously offered his service to drive me to all the places I need to go and not forgetting the road was pretty congested on that day too, waited patiently while playing chess on his phone as I attend to my client and then feed my face. LOL.

I really appreciate your wonderful company. Thankies~ This is a message to the PM. If you're reading this... 'Kam tong or not' that I got this down in my blog?

Gak! How am I gonna explain this in the report?!


Guess who?

Astonished

I've discovered something wonderful within me...

It's a feeling. A feeling I thought I'd lost.

Have I finally learn to open my heart to others after all these years?

Party Party Party

Reminiscing those days we used to party hard.

Partying almost every Weds, Fri and Saturdays and other days as well. LOL

And I guess that's the end of it. A month is more than enough.



Thanks for being there for me ♥

Tagged By Agnes

I got nominated by Agnes Lee

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Loves:

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3. White Clothings
   
4. Dark Poetry
   
5. Deep House and K-Pop Music
   
6. Sleeping
   
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7. May

Sweet Goodbye

Sorry I went MIA for quite a while. So much is happening all at once and it's been a bit overwhelming for me.

So yeah what did I do today? Oh! I went into Facebook and started deleting all the random people which Alex has probably added from playing the poker game thingie. ARGH! I hate random people especially to those who don't introduce themselves. To those of you who are in my puny little list, you are very much appreciated.

I was talking to Ash the other day on the phone while sighing at the wedding pictures in Facebook. Aihhh... lucky bitches LOL

Anyway, I'm sure many is wondering on how I've been coping with the breakup. Here's a short summary. A few days after the entry I did on the break up, he actually did came back and ask for forgiveness. I'll be truthful that I have considered going back in the relationship in hope to start everything all over again. However things didn't work out in between us and this has been dragging for close to a month. It felt like hell. I was single, yet not. I was supposed to feel free yet I felt as though I'm in a cage but one fine day, I found out all the shit he did while he was trying to patch things up between us. I felt so cheated and hurt. And the disappointing part is he denied everything. We've been arguing almost everyday and I came to realised there's too many loopholes in the relationship that can never be fixed and the scars left are permanent.

I've been sad for so many years. I really want to lift this weight and burden off my shoulders so I can be free and happy. I really really really really want to be happy. I gave a long thought on this and I take back all my words I said about him. This whole thing is not entirely his fault. It was mine too. His friends were right. It just didn't registered into my stupid head at that time. It's not like I didn't have any choice. I do have a choice and because I love him, I chose this path and I ended up like this. I can choose to be happy or sad. The decisions are actually in my very own hands. I'm so stupid for not realising this way sooner.

There's this saying which goes, "If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were." It's so true. I am such an asshole for hanging onto this relationship even though I know he's not even ready yet. But... I'm letting go now while I go reach for something else... my happiness.

He no longer contacts me now and I guess we both finally know and understood that the breakup is for real this time.

Alex, if you are reading this, first and foremost. I just want to let you know how happy I am when I heard you've been waking up early to work everyday. I'm so glad you're finally getting back on track. I wish you good luck to you in whatever you're about to do. I take my words back about regretting this relationship. Throughout the relationship, I've learned so much important lessons and I'll always appreciate all the things you did for me and will cherish all the happy memories we have made.

Letting go is a hard thing but if I managed to push it through this time, I know I'll become a stronger person.

P/S I hope everybody is doing great and once again sorry for all the late responds. I will update my comments asap.

Happy Birthday Michelle!

Thursday (21/05/09)

A little something for you ^^;;



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Set #3 From Re-Ment Candy House Series
Tada!

Coraline

I can't wait to watch this movie called Coraline

The Trailer


Coming soon on 17th September 2009

This movie is directed by Henry Selick who is also directed for the movie The Nightmare Before Christmas. I absolutely love watching creepy cartoons and I just don't know why. I remembered watching my first Nightmare before Christmas movie when I was nine and has been collecting memorabilia of them ever since. But! I've stopped collecting when Jack became too... too... 'famous' because too so many Ah Bengs and Ah Lians are carrying bags and shit with Jack on it. BLEH

U___________U
I really can't wait to watch the movie with Ash and Kern.